I haven't posted in a while, well, since referrals last came out. I feel like I am in a holding pattern right now...circling the runway until we are told we can come in for a landing...I checked China Adoption Forecast for the umpteenth time, still says to expect a referral on 7-30-09. I would be excited, because that is just three months away, however, it keeps getting pushed back, due to the small amount of LID's being referral, I am in referral hell, lol.
On a personal note, my sister in Illinois "might" have breast cancer. She has to have some scans done, so they won't know for sure, for a week or so I guess ....I can't think about that right now..it's just too much, we don't have the greatest relationship at the moment, but she is still my sister...sucks big time.
I've been missing my mom a whole lot, last week I was a mess, I am better this week..There are times when I still expect her to be here, it's a bitter pill to swallow knowing she is not, but I guess it's just a part of grieving, acceptance......
I wish I had some happy or uplifting things to post, but I just don't have it right now. I am not looking for pity or anything and I hate to be whiny or griping about the hand that life has dealt my family recently, just needed a place to put some words down, it helps sometimes.....
If you'll allow for a little melancholy...The song track posted above is dedicated to my mom....miss you...love you....until we meet again....