OMG!! Time is crawling at the speed of a snail!! It's almost cruel, lol. I really do not have nothing to post about. I honestly thought at this point, I would go into some sort of zen like trance state, knowing that I'll be seeing my daughters face soon. Isn't turning out that way, go figure...I hate to feel like I am wishing my life away, time is fleeting as it is.

OHH! Going on vacation to Wildwood NJ next week. I would say that it will help keep my mind off things, but uh, THAT would be a lie.... I'll just have MORE TIME to dwell on when we might hear of referrals coming in. GAH!

It should still be a nice time, since we are going with family. Err, I do mean ALL the family, so it should be, ummm interesting. If I can manage not wanting to pinch my one sister's head off, I think all will be well,,

My great-niece Cali-Grace is going. Rich and I love her to pieces! Rich cannot go anywhere without Cali wanting to go too!

Here is a pic of her, honestly I could just eat her up!! Such cuteness!

Here is handsome great-nephew Andrew, who is going as well.
My sister from St. Louis is going, can't wait to see you PJ!! Actually I can't wait to spend time with all the family, I think we need this regrouping time....


Hmm, I guess this wasn't a nothing post after all....
CCAA matched up to March 20th, that's 4 log in dates away from us. Little babies are finding their forever families, how wonderful is that!!

Now the next question is, will CCAA get to the 24th next month??? I'll tell ya, the closer you get to referral time, the more anxious you get....the more uncertain. I wish I could say we will be in next month, but who knows...no sense being upset about it, it is what it is.....

I think about Mia, hoping she is ok and safe, that there is someone there to hold her when she cries...to play with her...to show her love...that's what gets me....
Well, it's looking pretty good that CCAA has match up to 3/20/06, that's 6 days worth of LID's!! Awesome!!

The downside, the 21st, 22nd, 23rd and 24th, are all big LID days, meaning according to RQ's polls there are A LOT of people logged in on those days. It is the consensus that CCAA will only get to the 22nd next month, which will mean that we might not see a referral until August, or *gasp* September, which would be pretty disappointing....I didn't figure in that I might have to wait 3 more months, so I am pretty sad at the moment.....
Well, no new is good news, isn't it? I hope so, because it is still quiet out there. I have been feeling quite under the weather this week, so I haven't be "around" much. I am just going to have a glass of wine ( a known cure all, I am positive :), curl up on the couch and watch the Penguins play the Redwings....most likely I will fall asleep before that!

I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Much love to you all....
There is an teeny tiny, itsy bitsy rumor today, on the Rumor Queen. Not enough to make me go into spasms of joy, but enough to give me heart palpitations!

The rumor is so out of left field that RQ is only giving it the lowest rating on the rumor scale, an R1...The rumor is that CCAA is matching or has matched all of March. Gulp!! Does that mean if they have matched all of March, that they will send them all out as referral or only send out the matches they want to....Or this could all be a bunch of Hooey!!

Early rumors hardly ever come tru, unless they are bad, lol. So while the rumor brought a smile to my face and gave my heart a good lurch, I am not on the rollercoaster yet with this one...but, what if?????? Will we finally get to see Chrisser do the chair dance??? :) Inquiring minds want to know!!
So, here are some pictures of Mia's room. I don't have the drapes up and I have to decorate it, but the major stuff is done. The walls are a light lavender and I plan to do like a garden theme. I have cute fabric butterflies, bumblebee, dragonfly and flowers....








you can hear nothing, nada, absolute silence......no rumors about when the next batch of referrals will be in or what the cutoff date will be. It's torture, I need to know if we will be included with the July referrals...I just need to know if the torturous wait will ever end, lol.

On the bright side, we get to spend another $760 dollars updating our homestudy and fingerprints for the third time, Yay! Fun times...pffft!
I really don't mean to sound babyish or whiny....Rich and I are really so lucky to even be on this journey and I know we will be so blessed when we do receive our referral. It's just, well, we both are so ready for the next part of our lives to start!! I guess I am just feeling a bit cranky....