Hey!

Just checking in, nothing really new to report. The journey to Mia contiues on, though we expect to receive our referral within 6 months or so. Let the count down begin!!! Seems odd to be so close, after all this time. What really is blowing my mind and makes me more than a little sad, is that Mia has already suffered a huge loss in her life. It has occurred to me, more than once, that for me to become a mom to Mia, is for Mia to lose the most important person in her life. It makes me sad for her, but maybe we can help each other thru it, since I have lost my mom too...

Sad Times Part Deux.....

I haven't posted in a while, I know. I hope anyone who reads this blog would understand....

Well...my mother passed away on October 31st. The months preceeding that, were spent in daily visits to the hospital, surgeries and praying for a miracle. Then, when the doctors could do no more for her, the days were spent caring for her at home until it was time for her to go...

She passed peacefully and with all seven of her children by her side. Her husband of 42 years, my dad, holding her hand, whispering to her how it was ok to go and how much he loved her, will be forever etched on my heart... I miss her so much...if I could just hold her hand and see her smile..one more time...

My heart aches because I know that she never got the chance to see me bring my daughter home, she wanted that so much...but I vow my daughter will know my mother's smile, will know of the great love she had for her, even though she never go to meet her...

My family is devastated, but we go on. My father is heartbroken, but he takes it one day at a time...I didn't think I would be able to write about this, to express how I am feeling, but if I could make just one person see what a wonderful and wise woman she was, how she lived for her children, the joy she had seeing her grandchildren and great-granchildren be part of her world, well it eases the pain...just a little...

I miss you, mum, more than you could possibly know....